babylove.

HOPE

by Avery Robertson

Fiery night, windswept days, a heart that bleeds hands that pray. Future is unsure, I live within the 'now' every moment passes slowly, still I survive, somehow. Within his dark eyes shines the ethereal moon, he whispers low and soft, "Soon, my darling, soon." The constant beating, of my ever faithful heart holds the fragile promise, "Never will we part." So, the steady rhythm of my hopeful life goes on, now within my hands I hold life... my past already gone.

i had a good time today. had two things i've been like craving badly -

Cadbury BlackForest & Yong Tau Fu.

wee. Went compass in the afternoon with dad, mum & bro.

After sending ariq, went to have lunch at Banquet and then, walked around and goes

to the library.

blablabla. met bb in the lrt with dad around. hee. pretending like he's some kind alone.

anyway, had a good time is already great already righttttt.

so, yea. baby came over and doodle doodles in the night, he went home.

so, YAY! very bagosss.

12th May 2006

picture tells tales.

Yong Tau Fu!! (craves granted- thnks to family) Cadbury BLACK FOREST!! (craves granted -thnks to baby.)

my faithful best friend - MAYA.

meow , i love you.

Brother - Zack

My Boyfriend - Jap

My Jepon-Hitler - Ariq

The Thing - Afiq.

words explains through signs

sayonara.

i had eyes only set for you.

you & me more of yesterday's.. more of yesterday's..

JOHNNY DEPP

David Beckham

ey, haven't i told you before that my most all-time

favourite stars are JOHNNY DEPP and DAVID BECKHAM?

hee. hubba-hubba.

they just got the factor that chills and magnets my attention.

oh my oh my.

but , hey.

theres this one boystar thats far more seducing and forever

smittening me. The guy who im always wanting to meet would be my

dearest baby, Hairul.

And guess what, he's no superstar dreamer.

He's a boystar for real.

i love you.

heee.

**im too lazy to update stuffs today.

all im wanting to say out loud today is just about JOHN and BECK.

sayonara.

ps: mas, handsome kan Johnny Depp??

i love hubby! afeeqah ; munirah ; dinah picture perfect anggerik ; mawar ; delima A ; M ;D sweet the girls azza wasn't looking, i wasnt behaving hee. the boys we're caught baby look small left unfocused syg buat aper tu? ASHes 17th birthday! afeeq & muneeq rea , jap & hel.

uhhuh

lols.

him

hello,im on the move to turning 17.

today, another good day to be written down

in my blog.

heee. i did something i wasnt expecting to do.

Actually, i had a family function to attend today

with my parents and after a few minute changes, Mas called again

to confirmed if im going to Ash's birthday party later on at 4.30.

At first, i said that i've not confirmed. But then, after knewing my parents had

cancelled the plan we planning to do, i decided to to go.

Called Afeeqah and asked her to come along because she was

also invited.

blablabla, we've confirmed everything and then, i was on my way

to meeting baby downstairs.

After siap-ing sana sini, went down and walked all the way to the bustop opposite PP

and met afeeq under some blocks.

Walked our way into and through the void deck and not confirming where his house is.

Then, met Azza wondering under the void deck saying she was waiting for Ayu.

So, went up first and realising we were the first to reached Ash's home at 4.35.

hee.

at first we were thiking is this correct.

Level 3 or 4? Then Azza was asking, which level do you guys wanna try at.

So, remembering that ash's house was no where near a carpark, we tried level 4.

And, it was untill we kept saying Assalamualaikum a few times and seeing his mum and dad inside.

yes yes, we waited for the rest to come and actually, we had to be there before ASH comes home

because it was supposed to be a big birthday SUPRISE!

first, we were waiting for everyone to come which was like about only 10 people.

Then, planning to hide our shoes and hidding ourselves in Ash's bedroom.

So after doing so, ten of us all sat on his bed and quitely waiting for him to

enter the room.

We waited for like 1 hour and he wasnt home yet and we were all hot and already noisy,

luaghing and giggling. Funlarrr.

Then, reaching 6.15 Ash came home and as soon as he enters his bedroom,

we shouted SUPRISE!!!!!!!

he was half shocked and half not awake.

i dont know if he is really shocked. Perhaps he was too lost to show his emotions.

(is it , ASH??)

So, haha.

after that, we ate and feast on the foods that were earlier prepared and nicely dined on the

dinner table.

Mee, rice, chicken and some currypuffs. - nice!

after eating some were already playing some passing-around-message-game while some watched tv -

Kung POW!

i like seeing the baby tongue bluekking out.

anyway, after eating we had the cake ceremony.

everyone was singing both english and malay one after the other.

It was cute & loud.

Very crazyy.

We were already taking photos and laughing taking some candids.

So, yeaa. - had a great time at Ashes house.

After the whole thing, everyone slack.

Baby and the boys were playing Xbox:Fifa 07.

We were like sitting lazily at the couch watching them competing themselves.

hee.

around 8.15, we went home.

Me and baby walked home carrying the plastic bags his mum and dad gave us.

Went to prime to bought some chocolates for my own eating pleasure.

haha.

anyway, i had a great time.

Got to meet my friends and at the same time spending time with baby.

Happy 17th Birthday ASHY!

you're my irresistable;

nothing could make me deny you.

sayonara.

im hunger for what

i partially need.

today was good.

went out in the afternoon, walking no where.

Sat down somewhere and

start talking.

Talked about matters that were totally-out-of-the-world.

yeah, it rained heavy today.

Stop-go;stop-go.

Couldn't just stop.

Saw two beautiful yellow birds flying around the block in circles.

The birds seemed so lovingly attached to one another.

Wherever the first one goes, the seconds follows.

Sweet isnt it?

Anyway, mum came down.

We talked a little and only realised that its already 5.

So, we went to makan at MacD.

Had ice-creams with fries.

yumyum.

It chillness of the heavy pour, im feeling devouring myself.

Hee.

Anyway, im still wanting to watched this epic movie.

The movie looks too good to be too comical& hilarious.

It just excites me keep me wanting badly to watch, whenever i saw

the advert on the bus and tv.

Ouhhh; i hope the movie is still available to be seen.

Bb , on the other, wanted to watch Ghost Rider.

Well, the movie looked quite good as well but im just like so

already interested with Epic Movie.

And, you notice that star actor from Ghost Rider - Nicholas Cage.

he looked so good acting in that movie.

anyway, to shortcut things through - we had a great time when

baby came over to my place and watch The Hot Chick on Ch.5.

We cooked some meals and watched tv at the same time.

Oh man, i never could imagine what the hell might

happen to me if im turned that way against myself.

urghh, it'll be like so sedih.

so, blablablabla.

after baby when home i watched Gubra.

tak paham langsung sak aku tgk cerita tu.

Its like , its hard for me to catch the ball. So, what happens in the end?

You know, i still prefer Sepet.

Its nicely putted to make audiences understand and feel.

Romance.

keeping me hungry,

i'll ask for more.

sayonara.

okay, it was the 1st day of CNY.

So, most shops closed down and only left with MacD and LJS.

Bought food from MacD and ate it somewhere else.

After eating, went to the 6th floor of the carpark

and we started singing some songs and laughing here and there.

Sat at the end of the wall.

Listened to some radios and talked about stuffs that

was something out of the blue.

The wind was strong and bb was starting to like feel the rain.

Drop by drop i started feeling it on trickling on my

surface.

So, blablabla.

Bb went home for a while and then met again at night to play some sparklers

and hang out.

So, there was like 3 people - Adik, me & syg.

Were playing bunga api and then people started looking down

at us from their windows.

It was bloody irritating and it was something like we did wrong.

Yeah, late after that mum came up and brought dinner.

Hee.

Adik brought along candles and soon, we started to forgot

about those people who were looking down on us.

We ate dinner with the candles litted and nicely placed

in two rows ; parallel to one another.

Romantic i'll say.

Hee. Really, its beautiful with what we'd done that night.

After eating, we chatted a little and played rollerblading and some cards.

Soon, it was already 11 and bb had to go cause we're under 18 and

like police are around hunting on us.

Went home, get washed and and watched Sepet.

ouhh my god, that show was like nice and sweet-lovinng.

Romantic+totally beautiful.

but, it was sad to watched how the guy tried to get the girl of her dreams.

The girl he'd been waiting for all his life.

:((

anyway, it was late by then.

Watched Italian Job on the Cd till late -3 am in the morning

and finally, hit the sheets.

sayonara.

hah. this song reminds me of my cheerleading

starter song.

haha. ;))

back then was totally fun.

miss those days when we were busy preparing.

anyway, today's update.

let's see. well, bb came early morning today

and he was not feeling well.

He was sneezing almost every minute blowing

his nose. After then , went to the mall to buy groceries

and had lunch. Well , uhh , nothing much lar.

Heavy dogs,cats& hamsters just now and we were like

stranded at the mall.

So, ate at LJS and order two Combo 1 meals.

Overall, my day is fine.

nothing much to talked about though.

hee.

tmrw and the day after is CNY and i think i can hardly

do anything.

The shops are all closed till tuesday(most are) and i was thinking

are the shops at airport gonna close too?

i mean, thinking that the airport is 24hours open,

i dont think are closing right, is it?

ouhh man.

i better planned on something to do now or else..

;))

hrmm.

just CNY and all the shops are closing, i dont know why.

I mean, theres other people out there who

would probably be so bored because

what can you do in the middle of an empty street??

well,

gotto logged off for now.

Got to help mum with dinner.

ps;; would you be afraid if one day you'd find out that you're

shadow is missing?

sayonara.

baby, im so hungry

for more.

oh baby.

im so hungry over soo many things.

from food, to many other things im deciding to do.

There's TOOO manyy;

since im quite lazy to blogged in details today.

Just let me tell you whats running

through my mind

right now.

You'll be suprised.

;))

1-im so craving for Yong tau fu.

2-an Oreo cream cake.

3-Blackforest Cadbury Chocolate.

4-Polar's Chicken Pie.

5-Ice Cream Soda

6-Red Bull.

7- Strawberry

8- Go swimming at Jurong Complex.

9- Go Sentosa ; Tanjung Beach.

10- Go Escape Theme Park.

11- Get my nails done.

12- My hair DONE before school.

13- Spent a night with bb.

14- A campfire with chocolate-centered marshmallows.

15- Tenting.

16- Sat under the stars till 4 a.m in the morning with Love.

17- Neoprints.

18- Watch EPIC MOVIE.

19- watch A night At The Museum. (anyone with the CD?)

20- seeing bb moreandmore

EVERYDAY. (you know i can't resist you.)

i told you there's many things i wanna do and eat.

you know im a little

hard to statisfy.

sayonara.

For her.

For Him.

ouhh;pooh!

Qeurido.

Sweet,sweet.

Up&down.

Chocolates&roses.

kisses for the shades.

when life is at its most down.

Forested Atmosphere

Sweet Valentine.

wind,wind

genuine.

i love you so much.

a love so great i found

in you.

i had a great time today at the beach.

after doing some housework, met bb and sent ariq to school.

Bb gave me a rose and i was thinking it

was very sweet of him especially after

he told me about how he bought that flower in the

front of many audiences.

;))

So, then went to mall to have lunch at the

2nd floor.

AFterwhich, we walked our way to the bus stop and

took 88 to pasir ris.

Selengerr kan? Padahal tgh tunggu bus 89. Aper saje la.

so blablablabla -

we reached pasir ris interchange and walked

to Downtown.

it took us about 10 minutes after we shortcut through the

big field like little stoops.

hee. Reached downtown and head for Cheers to buy drinks.

I brought food but not the drinks.

Silly me.

Soon, a few minutes atfer we bought ourselves two

bottles of drinks, we walked again walked to

the beach.

Reaching the bridge, there's these two girls

who wishes us Happy Valentine's day.

I was like blur because i dont know

them AT ALLLL..

so, i replied them thanks politely.

Then, i saw this big lizard about 1metre long swimming in the water.

I called it 'biawak' but bb says its Kodomo Lizard.

is it the correct translation?

i dont know so i insisted on calling it a 'biawak'.

Anyway, seriously. Its 1 metre long and it was fat and big seyy.

Eii. Imagine if we were swimming in the water and seeing this amphibian,

oh my god.

I mean, its fast in water and land. fast because it had a strong big , long tail.

Hee.

Anyway, when that big lizard disappear among the trees we walked off.

Seems like it took us about 15 minutes to watch

that thing.

So, yes. Reached he place we planned for and already, we

saaaw otehr few couples picnicing over there on

the bench and grasses.

We were like the 4th coups to be there.

So, since its like windy, we sat on the bench and talked.

Blablabla, we were talking about almost everything.

The sea, the sea colour, the people and the corws around us.

Its trullly irriating and its also because of them i had to switch places

from here to there, near the waterbreak.

You know why? I'll tell you why, the birds started sitting up in the trees

and then started throwing bombs -POOPING i meant.

Urghh! at first i was really frustrated but then i kept thinking it was

really humourous.

Haha. I mean, can be frustrating .

SO , a few couples also shifted places as well because they're like

also ANNOYED!

hee.

Then, we found ourselves a nice shady bench and settle down.

Hee. A romantic evening, taking pictures , looking at cats and peoples.

Playing cards and laying down on the bench.

;))

So, it was reaching 6 and we left.

Stroll our way out of the beach and park.

I had a great time.

Anyway, the evening sky was beautiful.

Saw a flock of birds flying in the sky like airship troopers

doing there evening fishing.

Then, looking down into the seawater and saw a school of fishes.

Many and millions of them!- i swear.

it's like im seeing this for the first time in a nature state

where the fishes comes out at this point of time and

feeds.

There were like many otheres beyond what i can see.

Beautiful. ;)

after standing and admiring the view for 40 minutes, we left for

the interchange and took bus 88 home.

Then, went to mall and ate LJS.

Watched stars and then head home.

I had quite a time today.

I enjoyed myself , greattlyyyy.

you're my superman.

;)

sayonara.

in memory of Tompok -

died in a hit-and-run accident and breathing failure

a few weeks back which i only got to know

just minutes ago.

i miss this cat ; he's cute and a brave little thing.

may its soul rest in peace.

HOTNEWS! - do you believe me if i were to tell you that there is actually

catnapping happening?

believe me; its true.

catnapping does happened at my grandma's house at Muar.

there's this black cat who catnaps a Pursian brown

kitten from his frontyard garden.

poor thing.

suprisingly , the mother kitten searched upon the missing kitten.

and what shocks me - do you have any idea why the mummy black cat

CATNAPPED the pursian baby kitten?

well its simply because she had lost her own litter of kittens

and had no other kittens left to breastfeed on.

i heard its already swelling in pain because

there's non to breastfed.

its pitiful isnt it?

when im found..

baby, happy anniversary ;))

valentines romance with cupid.

Street Fight

Vortex

hot hot night.

when im half gone.

freestyles

my fat caterpillar

something's funny about that.

ouhh;

chameleon&praying mantis

dwarf, giant and troll.

silent is LISTEN.

sweet 9th.

yes, i do.

Perfume& shake bath. ;)

sweet black ♥

everything feels so right

when im with you.

colour of the day: white.

i had a great time today with bb.

woke up at 10 today, wash up

and then, sent cousins to school at 12.

Went to CP at 1 to buy the gifts and had them wrapped at

the same time. It was already at 2 and im still yet considering

what to buy.

Mum was getting furious because i was wasting time.

Ended up, i bought him 3 tees and a wallet from OP.

Wrapped the presents at Minitoons and then quickly

met bb under the block where he was already

waiting for minutes.

So, gelek2 , i reached there at 2.45.

Reached there, we exchanged gifts and we both were

suprised that both were in big bags.

haha. ;)

we sat under the block for quite awhile, picked up Ariq from school,

went to the mall to had ice-creams and then head home.

Bb came over and had lunch at my place.

then, gave him the card i've made for him the night before

and had him to opened up his presents.

bb gave ma sweet smile and hug upon opening the present i gave him.

upon opening mine, i was equally shocked as well.

a Santa Barbara;Polo&Racquetclub Perfume&a Blueberry bomb shake bath.

hee.

in the evening, we went for a little strolling before fecthing afiq from school.

it was windy yesterday.(infact, its been windy EVERYDAY)

At 6.30 fetched afiq from school and sent the two home

before dinner.

Very soon after that, bb and me were on the way to Hougang.

i told you i wanted to go the fair right?

So, i did.

we went inside - with a $2 admission fee(CRAP!) and then

bought tokens and rode on the XCoaster. It dont look anything fun but

when your on it youself, its already thrilling.

Its nothing like the theme park at downtown but im telling you, the

theme park at downtown is WORTH your money. Trust me.

The ride was thrilling and fun. It was like a roller coaster, except that it keep twirling

around left and right.

Making my stomach weak but i was laughing anyway.

It was fun.

Bb was already like laughing too when we suddenly dropped down

and he kept on clasping his phone in his pocket.

Blablablabla.

Lepas tu, when jalan2 in hougang mall and the central area and

then took bus 62 home.

On the way home, we were laughing watching Extreme Gourmet on tvMobile.

All in it today was about roller coaster rides but more of a higher one in

Japan. Over thousands feets high i tell you.

Haha.

Anyway, i had a really great time with bb.

Watched the stars while walking home. It was a tiring day but its fun.

thank you love. ;)))

your presence i my

most welcome.

sayonara.

when the clouds are gone.

ouhh.

so tmrw is Monday ; 12th Feb 2007.

I was thinking of going out to buy the presents in the

early morning-before afternoon.

Its so time constraint because bb finishes school at 12 and i wonder if

im gonna make it in time to wrapped all and stuffs.

Anyway, afeeqah says they're going out tmrw

and im not sure if im gonna make it because bb and i were planning on to

do something else.

So, anyway. I had a good time today.

Met bb and went out to have lunch , then went to play badminton

when it was windy! ;)) lols. Then, bb come over and watched tv and ate here.

So that's about it everytime right?

have dinner, go home.

You know, i've been watching tv and Im seeing this advert telling

me about the Self-Esteem campaign and it left me wondering

if i might be one of them?

Knowing that 1 out of 5 teens had thought of plastic surgery.

Not that i wanted any alteration to my face and body but,

hoenstly - i am afraid of putting on weight thinking that im turning

in a big round pumpkin. But still, i cant resist the delicate taste of

chocolates.

And, tell me.

What do you think of a diet by just drinking Milk and eating fruits ;

for three days in-a-row??

Is it advisable?

If a man could lift my soul high in the clouds,

i wish it was you.

sayonara

Saturday.

i woke up late because im like thinking so

hard about the courses im taking and

this ; im talking future! oh god,

deciding future is tough indeed. okay, i slept and

i woke up realising its 12.

Then, clean up, wash up and met bb downstairs.

Went to MacD for lunch and then bb accompanied me

to hougang(near monfort there,idont know where)

to get my two boxes of contact lenses.

so dardardar, im done.

head back home taking bus 62, from stadium.

on the way home, i saw this BIG funfair! im amazed!!!

i really wanna have a ride in all those rides.

im really looking forward to going there.

besides, it a cute think to do during your anniversary and

especially during Valentine.

hee.

the other thing im looking forward to is my 9th month anniversary

which is on Monday. Honestly, we've been through lots

of hardship together and Alhamdulillah, we've made it

this far.

im happy and his happy.

So, yea- i've already decided what to buy him.

Hee.

so , thats about done.

anyway, back to what im updating today ;

after reaching punggol we walked our way to Sengkang.

then, played rollerblading. Bb and me kept falling for a few times

on top of another, shelving ourselves. So, yes im bruised on my right

arm. Bb had his back a little swollen.

blablabla ;

reaching 7 , bb came over my place and have dinner.

have dinner, watched the movie taxi, with Maya lying outside the house

enjoying herself. ;))

so, then at 10 bb went home.

i enjoyed my Saturday today.

you?

sayonara

okay, so i had my results today. yaa, i admit im happy and proud

about what i've achieved. But hey, i've heard of this beautiful

quote

'' accept disappointment but never lose hope. ''

i believe that there's still hope for me. so anyway about today,

after getting my result , it was a suprised that nothing teared me up.

guess im happy and certain of my results. So yes, after that sat around with

the girls for awhile and then head home with bb from school.

bb was very supportive and encouraging. he was proud of what i've achieved

as well and i was touched because maybe what i had wasnt his or mum's

expectation. Mum said that it was okay because i did my best and im certain

that i really did. HEAR me ; IM proud of myself! ;)

bb walked me home and come by my place. back home, mum was already waiting

for me. i showed her my results and its nothing to fuss about. Mum said -

'' what done is done. '' .

going on, bb and mum surfed the web to see more choices and see what

are their prospect while i lay down tired+hungry&thinking. blablablabla;

it was six. after i had lunch, we went to uncle's house to watch tv and babysitt

my two kiddos. hee. so went on, around 9, all of us went to Macdonalds with uncle

to meet my aunt there. SO we were like in a big number already and likesuperr funn!

hee. me and bb ate Mcnuggetss. so, we had the ''re-union'' till 10 and then went home.

bb was like half-awaked. he was down-right sleepy and i can see his eyes opened

with the support of sticks on the eyelids;just to keep the eys open. (haha,im just joking!)

no serious right? darn.

so ,yeah. go home and think about the choices all over again and now im ready.

welcome, here comes my new chapter in my history.

*** to all my b-buddies - im gonna miss you guys loads, keep contact yar?

love y'all! ;))

memories from 2003-2006. (1C,2C,3E,4E)

sayonara.

TO MUM& BABY, thanks for supporting me all

the way. ;)

my sweet, sweet lover.

when love meets fate.

im true baby.

kisses;languages of love.

bumblebee.

im yellow/brown today.

;)

i cant see.

messed up

sweets

checkered.

when besties meet.

say HELLO!

a smile. My colour of today is Yellow! okay, so today i went to Vivo with bestie and bb.

Actually, i met bb there because he was from school

and he was not having any lessons at that time.

After meeting him, we go ate lunch.

I ate carrot cake and afeeqah ate spicy seafood mee.

halfway eating, we were already full.

urghh.

bb didnt ate because he ate LJS before seeing me.

So, there i went after that to the top of Vivocity and

sat down.

Sooner, the sun was raging hot and the wind blowing strong.

We were playing uno when the string gust of wind blew our pieces

of cards away. haha. ;) bb ran after the cards while me and afeeqah

stay put and losing a card throught the gaps

between the planks. hee. lucky for us, bb hands were

slim enough to went pass the gap and grab the card.

hee.

after that, we shifted to a shady area , near the water.

blablablabla...

bb had to go because he was going back to school

at Six. So, i was left sitting with afeeqah while she waits for her bf.

A few minutes later, bb called and told me that he's

not going to school and instead meet me halfway home.

so, there i went.

down the mrt, top up my card and went home.

After a 45 minutes journey, i met bb and meet up with Mum.

After chatting, we went to sent the kiddos like usual

and then, went to have dinner.

so, today was greattt. ;)

results are out tmrw and im partially nervous.

im numb to feel just feel any emotions.

urghh.

im just praying for the best and wishes the other's

candidates best of luck.

so, i had to hit the sheets now.

meeting dee and Nonis tmrw.

sayonara.

i love you so much baby. ;)

Happy Family

Baby dont fight. Suicide x( white light. sicked juon my coach woohoo;this is fun! apa you buat kat situ? Up&below

two more days till friday. im not feeling what ever; im too numb.

urggh.

well, maybe im half-am and half-not.

so, maybe i'll decide which on i consider to be after SEEING the

results myself. ahh,suddenly im feeling all so nervous till the back of

my neck stiffens cold. burr.

after results, we decide and after that, we have to

wait till march for the

results of which school we are goin into.

hrmm; anyway, dont let the good times run okay?

so today i had quite a day.

i woke up early to accompany mum, fetch the two kiddos. Then, sightseeing

my blog, my friendster. checking updates lar!

then, bb came around at 1. I made some burgers

and bb had two of them. hee. after eating, bb lie down and watch tv while i go fetch

ariq downstairs. adik come home and watch tv with us.

around 5 in the late afternoon, we went to the top of the carpark and

chill there. Bb and adik played football; me and ariq

played skating down the ramps.

fun;cold wind blowing thru our faces. weeeeeee.

i feel so free up there.

Actually, the carparks kept my many memories with bb.

Right from the moment we knew each other and till now.

Usually, we used to sit down by the side of the ramp and watched the stars. Sometimes,

we shared our problems and share our wishes. Sometimes,

we tell ghost stories and scare ourselves off. ghees! Like the time when it rain,

we sat up there playing the rain. There was one time we get caught by the

police. Well, not actually get caught but we were seen by the police because there

was lighting back then.

hee.

but, lucky for us we were busy laughing our butts off the ramp.

haha!

it was cute,okay?

anyway, after we got together for months already, we get horny.

hee.

my first kiss to him was there, the very same spot i'll remember. hee.

its late at night,we were teasing each other. hee.

hrmm.

okay okay, i get to whats today.

today, i had a great time im sure.

with adik, bb, afiq & ariq.

hee. the boys are cute. i love 'em.

so, hey.

gottogo now. im getting pretty hungry and tetangga dah bermula!

hee.

toodles my peeps!

sayonara.

head start

retards

stay alive

my small world

my two goatee's caught in action

Ms Smile and Mr Annoyed

Trio Rain Dance

OPPS! i miss the shot.

my two lost kambings.

ouhhlalalas;

an angel from grave.

get whirly with me and Baby.

yea! today was kindda great. i spent the whole day doing nothing. hahas. in the morning, i woke up late. By noon, i was busy sending my two cousins to school. Yes, i'm working as a partime nanny, any chaos? so then , i went to point with mum to have a look at the things i want to buy for bb because next week on the 12th, its my 9month anniversary and also Valentine's day. hohos. We browse thru quite alot of stuffs and still deciding what to buy. Went to banquet and ate my most favourite dish;chicken rice. yum yum.

Reaching three, i went to fetched Ariq from school. He was so eager to go to school and eager to go home. kids!

in the late afternoon, adik teera come by to do some research. but, i wasnt at home because i had met up with bb at the void deck with ariq and went to mall. We went to the foodcourt and settle down. After so, i bought chocolate pancake & squid stick. I share the chocolate pancake with ariq and ate the squid all alone! (haha!)

so by then, we were on the way to my void deck. Then, went up level six to play skating. Actually, im suppose to teach bb how to skate but then, after a few tries, he gave up. Anyway, he says he was preparing for his soccer match tmrwlarrr.(oh god! boysboysboys)

so, in the late evening, adik went to play soccer with abg hairul while i fetched Afiq. After which, i got a call from asking what's my acct number. Woo. So while watching them playing, i had to run up home and get my acct number. im panting like fcuk. hee. so, yes;i can be alittle vulgar. so, yar;dont mind me! ;) anyway, around 8, athirah went home while me, mum and bb sent my two cousins home. urgh;like usual, they were reluctant to go homelarr. i dont know whats so fun abt staying with me(i mean;icanbeprettyannoyingyouknow?)

after that , went to have dinner at LJS. Talked about school and the result coming on this friday.

Otw home, met Justin&Royston.bb chat with them for quite awhile sementara i went to look for black and there she was all alone, cold and hungry. She's been fighting with other older cats around the area. She has move to 185C.

Went home after that feeling so dirrty and hungry. Yeah, now its already a minute past one and im hungry for chocolates!

somebody feed me pls. ;0

ps;im feeling all so butterfly in my tummy, nostrils and everywhere. i cant help it but the results are pretty risky. i heard we did bad this year.

ouhhhh. someone ease me and take this butterflyes away!

ouhhlalalas;;

sunshine

im such a mess! tweets/kisses. MayaMunirah; hostility being the only girl im made forr my peeping Maya. elf;troll. photos;love when im poisoned, heal me. ey? kpo-creeps. darn;we're caught my cute NEUTRON cousin. Black Riding Hood. today im feeling confused. im being such a pest & irritating bf all along. i dont know what got into me. but, lucky for us, we still manage to clear it all up. i apologised for what i've made of today but its not like im planning for it. Things got bad in the after noon, had a few arguments & had to settle it fast. Honestly, we end up both drowning in tears.

enough of that, we make things out and we kisses / comforted each other. he lend me his shoulders to cry on and he hugged me warm. (: so, thinks were good after then. went to look for Maya. She looks a little sicked but she's so into camera's today. See the photos up there, cute isnt she?

Along after that, bb come to my place because i want to make things up to him. Serve him dinner and ate together with him, adik & ariq. Ate chicken porridge and drank sprite. Bb also bought LJS for us and so, we chomped all. Bb hadn't eaten since morning. Poor thing, he was starving.

Anyways, i had to blogged off now. I promised bb to sleep early today. And at the same time, im wanting to watch Fiesta Komedi. Hee. Cute!

So, till then;

sayonara!

ps; and YAR; O LEVELS THIS FRIDAY!! DAMN!! IM DROWNED!

hey!!;im loving my new skin.

white & longggg.

i take hourss to statisfy myself,okay?

i loike it, can?

:))

smile for me lar.

.......

anyway,

today is a total raw.

didnt do much of today except just to

go eat at foodcourt ;

watched tv at my place

& went to buy dinner.

but, today was fun when im busy snapping

my moments with love!

hee.

suddenly im feeling of saying how crazy i am.

are you happy?;i am.

haha.

yes, i agree im alittle outwired sometimes

but HEY, im still rocking my

life to its best

of fun & fun.

wee.

so tralalala,

lets talked something ey,

have you ever feel so

backstabbed by

the ones you

ONCE declared - 'friends'?

and i dont just mean friends friends you know,

im saying friend of friend.

those whoe would stood by

you in times or hardships and keep their mouth

shut when the world isnt.

suddenly im feeling so

awkward of myself.

i've been through that stages before and

believe me;

its total pain.

i still remember those times i had to struggle

by myself ;

trying to clinged on whats left behind.

The one's i called 'friends' are

those who eats up my

inside.

i've been clinging on for months & weeks.

I depend on no one but just those

im close to.

Like my old plas from back in sec Two and

not forgetting the two most

beautiful people

who gave me the

hope that being alone doesnt mean

its to give up.

Those two people are not other than

My mum and my Hairul.

For those past months, they were the ones

who make me feel still alive.

Also, those who keeps me smiling and laughing

in school.

Friends like Dinah, Mas and the others.

Hrmm.

But today, im a new me.

Im not looking back into my past but just

learning the mistakes i've made.

That is just to make sure that

i won't get backstabbed again.

hrmm.

But, hey.

Experiences makes us a better person.

till tmrw,

mwah.

sayonara.

ps;YEAH!!!! FINALLY A GOAL FOR SINGAPORE!!!!!!

YEAH!!!

S-I-N-G-A-P-O-R-E!!

(ey, i hear the whole neighbourhood screaming!)

ROCK ON SUPPORTERS!

LIONS!

MY YUMMY BREAKFAST!!

ARIQ/AFIQ

DADDY/ARIQ

JAPDOLL.

JAPBOI.

CRUNKS.

MY LITTLE JAP FAMILY.

WINKIES/:)))

HIDE/SEEK

FEED ME/HUNGRY

Baby's HOME

i love photos.

i enjoy taking them the whole day!

:))

So , yes i havent updated my blog for three days.

But, that doesnt mean that i cant simply talked about it now right?

Come, let me recall.

Thursday.

yes , at first im feeling so fckingly like

out-of-this-world, you know what

im saying?

urghh.

but then, things heals fast after i met bb

after school.

his school i meant which ended up late.

met him, went to have

dinner at

LJS.

we sat there for quite awhile.

talked about stuffs

and then went to NTUC to buy

whisker's cat food:chicken&tuna.

We often buys it for Black & Maya.

Then head back to my void deck and fed the cats.

They were adorable and

black ate it with this noisy sound.

it sounded like yum yum yum.

hee.

But, she's a little too skinny.

Then i saw a box and thought it would be

a good place for Black to sleep in

because the box is spacious and

enough to cover him from the

cold night when she sleeps.

Bb get the box and places it

at the bottom of my window.

So after that we sat that

talk, talk, talk.

Mwah mwah mwah and gd night.

He goes home because he's

super tired and also because he wanted to

catch the Final Episode of Prison Break.

ouhhh;i love that show.

And so , i went home.

bla,bla,bla and you know what?

-i hate sleeping alone

It's scary. :(

Friday.

morning came and i woke up early because

mum & dad were already talking loud

enough to woke me up.

wash up & fetch my cousins.

like usual, sent them to school and

wait for bb to come.

ticktockticktock.

Bb came and hello.

met bb and went to eat at MacD.

i was badly craviing for McNuggets with mayonise,

chilli and curry sauce.

YUM!!!!

bb had McChicken.

mum ordered it for us and upsized the drinks and fries.

hee.

yum yum.

but then , im full.

it was 1.45. Another

45 mins to 3 before little Ariq

goes home from school.

SO, we sat down at SCC

and chit chat with Mum.

We were laughing and laughing till my tummy

hurts.

At 3, mum left us because she had to fetched

Ariq.

Me and bb stay put and do nothing.

Bb then started to fill

sticky and uncomfortable

because he had been playing

soccer the whole morning.

He looked tired though.

Went to bb home;he bathed

and i was waiting in the livingroom.

Browse through the newspaper

and watched tv.

Bb came out of the bathroom, smelling

so-nice and seducingly attracting

my female inner-instinct.

*cheeky* >-<

hee.

so , things were hot

back then

and i was already scratching his back.

he likes that -

so muchh.

:))

(hell, what were u peeps thinkin?)

hee.

make-out is make-out but not more ey?

hee.

so then, reaching 5,

we went out and

head back to my place.

Went back to place and there he started

to complained about his

aching legs feeling so sore

and tired.

So, i massage b's legs.

10 minutes later, he

was already sleeping in my bed

not realising that i was massaging

his legs.

reaching 10 , i woked bb up.

He went home as though his drunked.

I sent bb home till the end of the bridge with my eyes

following his every steps.

Head home.

Watched some video tapes before i went to bed.

Saturday.

Woke up real late today.

Clean up my room, doing the laundry and

helping mum with some stuffs.

In the Mid afternoon,

i asked bb to come over to my place

and we watched some cd's he brought

along.

Watched the horror movie; ' Infection'.

Damn, that movie is like

a little tk masok akal gitu.

All along it's him , himself talking in the mirror.

And at the beginning i cant believe

that the doctors and nurses

were saying that they're out of supplies.

Out of drugs, out of blood bags and everything.

So i was thinking, how the hell can the government of

god-knows-where, could possibly not help,

right?

you know what im saying?

Enough of that, its boiling me.

We watched it in my Bro's room because

my room had only the tv.

The only thing my room is filled with is my hockey stick,

my stuffed toys, my many cds, my books(comics and stuffs),

my music box and other boxes and lastly my clothes.

Hee.

I liked cosy rooms.

Hee. Anyway, bro's room had an Xbox to

play this cd.

We watched it from the bed.

Adik bed is big enough for the two of us

to lie down and watched.

The movie took about estimated-twohours.

All along, we were like in a cinema.

Watching the movie in the dark

and snuggling tight.

ouhhh,i love it!

wee.

So after that, bb and me ate dinner.

Bb wanted to eat the Seafood maggie

while i ate the dish my mum cooked.

At 9 ,

we left the house and went downstairs to buy drinks.

Bla,bla,bla.

We went to NTUC like usual to buy the cat food

and went looking for Black.

Poor she, she was already being scared off

by the other cats.

So, i carried her up and broght her to the usual.

fed her and Maya came along.

And , i did divide the food into two.

Giving a little more to Black because Maya

had food upstairs.

One thing, she was my neighbours cat.

Hee.

So there, i ended my conversation with bb on the

phone just recently because

he sounded so

half asleep.

And now, im off to watch more tapes.

Till tmrw;

good night.

sayonara.

ps: im feeling sleepless at night!-hate it.

someone, help?