babylove.

suddenly im feeling so different of myself.

i dreamt of something

that totally changes the person i am today.

yesterday evening

was really gloomy and dark for me.

wandering the void deck and strolling

by myself.

met Black and fed her.

for more than once, i think she's cute and

a real companian.

Like Maya, even if you're down

at your lowest point,

they are the

best to keep you company.

though they cant speak our language,

their purring and the way they make you laugh

is so cheering up.

hais.

can you notice from the way i'd

type this?

different doesnt it?

sometimes, something's bother me :

do people change for the one's they love

is it the vice-versa of the phrase?

sometimes i wonder if the moving cloud

matters about whats

happening below it.

it doesnt seem like it cares right?

hrmm.

there are like so many more question's that

circle's the mind.

there's this one phrase that says :

' kalau cemburu , ertinya sayang '

like that time me and Ddy was figuring

out whether this theory

was proven correct.

To me, it depends doesn't it?

some jealousy meant envy ,

well some jealousy may meant love but

not always like that.

some jealousy meant that they wants

to get even witht the other.

you know what i mean?

yea,

some sort like that

so the theory kind-of cannot be proven whether right/wrong

because it's simply up to own's opinion.

hrmm.

and yar,

before i forget there's this one song that

im so in love with today.

so, how long isit since i last update?

about two or three days

ya?

hais.

im so super boring and blunt to do anything.

want to go out, but im waiting for

someone, mum's not

in to entertain me,

ariq not in to humour me.

damn.

so , i woke about 8plus today and teman

mum go NTUC/mall.

had breakfast and went buy some groceries.

maklomla, dah tk keje tolong mak

la pulakkn.

so, then went to fetch my two

babies.

Fetch them , brought them home

and thats it.

get them ready for their school and voila,

dah siap pun.

mum sent them while i sat alone at home.

actually, i've just done with the laundry.

the weather is nice and warm outside.

i wish i could go down to the beach

and wow, nice.

feeling the warm breeze blowing against the skin

with the sun baking down on

you and get a tann.

hee.

anyway, after doing so, i grabbed whiskers cat food

and went downstairs to look

for Maya.

She wasn't there, so out of the bushes

popped little Black hurriedly

running towards me.

Its like been days since i last met her.

Jadi, bawaklar dia pegi corner and

put her food down.

She burshes against me and went

purring, looking at me.

i guess it's like a sign for thank you or something.

so, after feeding her and playing with her,

i went up and her i am doing this blog.

hmm.

so yes , i aint got nth to do for now.

so, im blogging off because im kinda busy

with Neopets right now.

hahaha!

so what if im childish?

it keeps me away from bored-isim.

and that's what matters.

:)))

toddling off peeps.

sayonara.

today so very mendak siol.

dinah and me slack.

sales;not much.

its quite bored as well because

you know how

people trace and take down your

every move.

irritating right?

its like mcm tkde freedom gitu,

just because we are new and young.

they like dont trust us like that.

siak je.

we cabot to have lunch because only us that has

to go to lunch one after the other.

in other words,

one-by-one lar gitu.

we didnt quite agree,so when our boss isnt around..

we walked off leaving the atrium and the counter.

we walked straight to the canteen

and eat putu mayam / string hopper.

uh, dont know what is that

dinah tell me lar.

hee.

anyway, had quite a time just now.

meet people with all kinds of kerenah siak.

haha.

tadi, bb fetched me like usual.

it was raining.

so, we head home in the rain, under one umbrella.

today was alright , i guess

except the part after the boss called us.

ugrrhhh.

hais. im like so sleepy already.

gotto sleep now.,

working tmrw.

sayonara.

Third day of work is okay.

we had made some sales but not

really satisfying.

people were looking at us like

we're some kind of caged-animals.

their stare's..wooo.

really nervous especially when you're

standing in the center of the two

escalators.

anyway, today im feeling so apart form bb.

i miss him so much.

he's sick and not well but still picking me up at Simei.

How i wish i had an off day tmrw

so that i could take care

of bb and to keep him company when his bored like

i used too but , im

working tmrw and there's nobody

to replace my position.

hais.

Usually , bb will stay over at my place. I'm his

doctor ,nurse and babysitter.

Gotto go now.

I'll catch up later.

For now, its time to hit the sheets cause

i cant be late again tmrw.

b, i love you.

get well soon love.

i miss Black.

When tough gets going,

goings get tough.

today was totally tiring.

make sales today and

i get to interact with

interesting customers.

those with

attitude and does who doesnt bother

at all.

huhh.

my feet is really, really killing me.

i think if my feet could speak

up to me,

they would probably be begging for

mercy.

they'll maybe screaming in mercy if they see any

heels around.

haha.

but serious, really tiring especially when there's no

customer and you had to go around approaching

them.

they will keep shoving you off.

some even walked away

when they see you from far.

must thick skin hor doing this kind of work.

what to do, every hour of it

is money.

so, there i go in the morning off to work

when i was half-way to the bus-stop

MY SLIPPER SNAPPED and

PUTUS!

alaaaa...

i was in a breakdown by then.

it was 8.30 and there was not much time

for me to get onto the bus i

wanted which was at 8.38.

I rushed home, meeting mum downstairs and

changed to the new slippers.

i was thinking ,

matila hari ni... prangai siak.

i was starting to lose my mind.

at Simei , Dinah was already calling me

asking me where i am because i

was late.

As soon as i saw her , we walked our way to CGH like usual.

Bought ourselves some food

and ate it at the garden.

5minutes before time, we were alreay packing our stuffs and

ready for sales.

The big boss of my company came

down today to see our Atrium sales , together

with the other big bosses of the relating company.

I panic when she strated testing me on the products.

which is which.. what suits her skin..

which do i recommend...

but lucky enough, i managed to pass it by bit.

i was dying.

eventually, me managegd to sold off some item and

attend to their needs and

questions.

Lucky for me, i've study them all yesterday.

So i started practising how to approach customers with Dinah's guide.

thank you sister love.

so ya.

it was quite a time today.

today totally slack.

at 6 , we packed up all of our items and i saw bb

already at the entrance.

i was delighted.

We went home and so on and so on.

But , one think today...

i didnt saw Black at all.

I only saw Maya walking back and forth infront of me.

Mom said Black and Maya had

a fight earlier on and maybe Black ran away.

Far , far away.

damn. mcm nk nangis siak.

kesiannya.

baby cat lari jauh2 with a serial CATkiller around?

pls..

its really cruel to see a cat being killed

and tortured.

Like what happen to the cat about the previous

report.

The cat was stranggle and hanged at the straircase.

it hurts alot , really.

May the cat's souls live in peace.

sayonara.

first day of work is never an easy one.

woke up at 7 today.

8:15,i went out of the house

and straight

to the bus stop. Bloody feet's killing me

with the whole traffic jam

eating my time away.

frusted,mesti arh.

mcm fcked up gitu;dah lar tgh gabra.

It was already 8:38 when i board up

the deck bus to find myself still

stuck in traffic in the

middle of the highway.

i was supposed to meet Dinah at 9 at

Simei Mrt and damn dah pkl 9 lar sey bila

smpi pasir ris.

hee.

so, finally i reached Simei at 9:08 with me still

waiting for Ms Dinah.

Waiting was okay but it was not okay

with people around.

Especially those still schooling, you know?

For somehow, i dont miss school

but i do

keep the memories i had during sec 2

when i used to skip lessons and still be passing

my english B above, thanks to that

Missy who dont bother even if we copied.

Haha.

Even though Im from express, doesnt mean that

im all that stucked up to study you know?

Study is a must but a little mischief to it is

horribly no harm at all.

Mischief like running away from classroom

when the teacher is teaching,

eating and drinking at the back of the class ,

having loads of people to rebel together

with you when it wasnt at all the teachers fault.

hee.

So, back to todays diary.

After meeting Dinah , we walked our way to

CGH and went to the canteen for breakfast.

Before reporting, we went to 7-11 to

bought us something for lunch.

At first , i was bored and nerbous with those seniors

pressuring me with their hard stern stares.

didnt i tell you i hate that?

urgh.

so then it keeps going on and on

till the afternoon. What to do , buat bodoh la.

Most customers just look and walked away.

Some just smile and flirt.

Okay, so i was disgusted tapi mcmmane kn?

tkkn nk marah, elakkn je.

finally , i saw bb with his friends.

i was so like happy smcm gitu.

mcm suka sgt tgk dia ada.

honestly lebih better pada org yg kita tk kenal kan???

so bb dropped by for awhile and i really appreciate that.

thank you sygg. muacks.

so, i carried on like usual so that

they wouldnt know that

my bf is around.

So time passes and the competitor next to our booth mcm

smcm punyerr prangai.

ape sajer lar tunjuk muka gitu.

muka mcm nk mkn org.

Dinah told me to ignore bcoz she's like

that when there's no customer.

Urgh.

Tpi, mmg frust arh kalau tkde sale,

confirm kena marah dgn org besar

after this week.

my feet is already a big problem to me and

yet, this.

hais.

i'll see how long i could carry on,

or else i'll quit with a week's notice!

imagine that???

A WEEK!

hais.

tmrw , we had to do sales individually.

inside and out.

bb fetched me from work woth me having

to clinged on him when we walked.

sorry b , but thanks love.

got down the bus 88 and saw black playing at the

bushes near the bus stop.

i was shocked because

jauh seh dier merayap. kalau kena

aper2 mcm mane?

so, i called her home.

she walked her way with me and bb.

at the basketball court , i carried her thru because

there were dogs there.

but , instead she was enthusiasticla npk anjing kena

marah.

haha.

really,

im starting to hate this job.

so ,ya i hate it by now.

tmrw another bunch of stress

and the next day the other.

gotto go and soaked my feet in a warm bath

before sleep tonight.

*with all the fake-friendly people pretending to smile at me.

tk friendly siak.

tk suka, sua ah.

hais.

so, there.

tmrw another case okay?

toodles doodles peoples.

sayonara.

ps; baby, i miss you.

so im starting work tmrw

and im so nervous right now.

never had i been like this before.

never wanna work actually but Dinah

said its an experience worth trying

and its vital for future use.

yes yes yes , im working for the first

time after two months past thanks

to Dinah.

my day was alright. met B and went out.

then, watch the dance floor.

gosh, you should see that show.

well, really lar nth much to say.

just that, tmrw im really working and thats

the thing.

eiik.

working time - 10a.m to 6p.m .

Meeting Dee @ 9 at Simei Mrt to had breakfast together.

so there goes the starting of my week

with new tasks awaiting me at the door.

doodles people! ;

signing out.

Saturday.

Went out with B and Mum.

Bought a black clutch purse from OP

and i go yipeeee because i've been longing

for a long wallet for quite a

period now after my old one

was thrown away.

so there, i had what i wanted

and then went to eat lunch at Magic Wok.

Had few of my favourite dishes there like fired thai

baby squids.

yumm yumm.

i was looking for a specific kind of watch that would nicely

fits the style and size to my wrist

after being disappointed

that i couldnt find any.

after walking around the heartlands ,

mum wanted to go home cause

she's like having flu and fever

and tk blh klua lamer lamer gitu.

jadi, b and me hang around the

SCC.

sitting at the SCC was fun.

we chat, laugh, take pictures and laugh some more

till my tummy hurts.

had some drinks, it started raining.

reaching 8, we went to my uncle's place

to watch EPL;chelsea vs liverpool.

We support none but adik

support Liverpool.

Its his very favourite.

At the end of the game, Liverpool won

and adik was so happy.

haha.

nothing had to do with me

but i simply love watching

the players on the move

in the playing field.

soon, its was reaching 11 and

we were on the way home.

B kisses goodnight and went home.

Didnt see any sight of Maya

and Black today.

i sure missed 'em.

had to sleep now.

waking up to a whole new day tmrw,

Sunday.

salams.

"the soul shows the true beauty."

so today i have quite a superr tiring time.

went around with b to get the

job im in for.

b comes for breakfast at

my house.

at one,

we took the bus number 88 and dropped at the

interchange and took the mrt to simei.

i made an appointment with Dinah at 3 and its fifteen

minutes to three and im still not there.

it was hot and bloody humid.

we reached the hospital in the nick of time

adn saw aaron's wife walking out of

the taxi bay.

i didnt notice her but b did.

i was panikking like heck until i saw

dinah at the main door waiting for me.

so then i accompanied her to lunch.

we had a few talks on what the interview

is going to go about.

at 3.40 , i followed dinah and went to see

the person in charge.

After Molly asked a few sorts of questions,

they hired me and i had some tryouts.

At 4 , Molly called me and told me

that i had to rushed down to the

main office now before 6

and registered my particulars and

at the same time get my uniform before Monday.

i was like 'oh my god lahh'.

jauh sehh.

So there i go making my way to somerset with

sayang looking for Winsland House and after

founding the office,

i went up to the sixth level and

do some paperwork.

sayang had to waited for me outside at the lift lobby while

im inside.

soon, everything was over.

b and i were getting pretty hungry and

we head back to the mall

to have dinner.

we went home around late 10

with tired legs and swelling

foot..

oh godd.

it was freakiing tiring.

i cant imagine how im gonna work this way.

so here, im signing off now

because aku mcm betol penat

nak pengsan.

b, i love you so much.

thanks for your company , love.

you best!

sayonara

and

goodnight.

it was a great day today.

went out with afeeqah.

meet her at macdonalds

and had lunch with her and

then went for a little walk-a-around the Point.

heee.

after getting sicked and bored,

we went to punggol.

Went over to afeeqah's place just now

and watch happy feet while

afeeqah typed out her resignation

letter.

ohhh,happyfeet is nice but i so hate this one part

where mumble is put into a zoo.

anyway,

staying over at her place was cool.

at 4.30 then, we walked all

the way to mall because thats

where she is working.

im really all paranoid about that thing

im going to go for tmrw.

Dinah gave me a job and in order for me

to get that job with her,

i had to undergo a tryout for 1hour and

only after then i get to know if i am

hired. so, this is my first time.

ow-wee. this is so much tense.

so, all the best to me.

Honestly , today i behave well. i helped mum with the house chores

and i waited b till school is over.

Heehe.

Saw Black downstairs today.

She's getting skinner and skinner

each day.

Poor thing.

She's cute and cuddly but a little not discipline.

Maya pulak getting fatter and fatter je.

So, thats about for today.

Till i blogged again tmrw(if im not a bum),

toddle doo!

Monday.

Monday is always nothing much to tell.

Hais.

So , my day today was okay.

Weather still wet and floody.

Cold and dark.

Wake up rather late just now because last night

it was too noisy and i stayed up

about one whole hour yesterday night

trying to sleep.

The sound of two cats in an ongoing 'thing' .

One was definitely the sound of the female

and the other a male.

Sounded like something intim and forceful la.

haha.

you know how loud cats can be especially

in the early morning around

3 am to 4.15am.

ughh! seriously , it was kind of disturbing too

you know?

with the purring and stuff.

Okay.

Put that cat subject away aite.

So , like usual b comes around to meet

in the afternoon after school.

And realllyyyy nthh much of today.

tooorahhh.!

Okay. So, i had a good time.

went to the chalet and everything was good.

the food , the people and the environment.

absolutely great.

So now, let's dig it from the bottom.

I woke early at 9, bathe ,eat and do some chores.

Then , went on watching some shows on tv

and realising that its already

noon.

So , i went to call b and confirmed the

time we shall meet.

At around 3 plus , we were waiting for bus number 3.

We waited for the bus for around

15 minutes and the bus finally arrived.

(punyelarr lama bus dtgg)

We board the bus and headed our way up to pasir ris

and got off at the bus station before

the bus enters the interchange.

Well, since we were invited to come at around

4 or 5, b thought that we

were a little early and decided to walk around White Sands

to pass time.

So, we did a went about looking at stuffs and

very soon we were getting pretty

bored and flee off to downtown.

At 5.45 , we reached the chalet.

(after having trouble finding the venue that

was differently given. lols!)

okay.

So, most of them were already there.

Derek and the whole gang , Dinah's old friends , Celeste and the rest

and also the group of people who

helped Dinah out.

The party started with the barbequeing followed by

the cake celebration which is at 7. Poor Dinah

she was pranked with soap, egg and flour.

And the party continued with us eating while watching

the Sunday Movie ; " The Day After Tomorrow ".

It was fun watching tv in a group.

The room was already crowded and noisy.

What's worsts, the boys started throwing balloons

and popping them one by one.

kechorable btol bdk2 tu.

Afterwhich , I realise that its already 10.45.

So, b and I decided to go home because

he's schooling tomorrow morning.

We walked our way out from the chalet

and take a shortcut thru downtown and take

bus 89 home.

(bus nie pun lambatt)

And, we reached home at about

15 minutes before midnight.

Damn i was tired. Both my feets are superr aching

with the back of my feets having blisters.

Hee.

Looks like

My sunday was sure a lot to tell aye.

today's update ; today i woke up rather early after having some trouble sleeping since the last two days. the night hasnt been good for me lately. =) the weather looks

gloomy. after waking up , tidy up my bedroom and wash myself up which after then , i watched Jimmy Neutron on kids central. Jimmy and his friends were hypnotise by this show called 'the happy show show' .

haha. Okay , so after then, i went out with darl'b in the

afternoon. The afternoon was wet and muddy.

ugrh!

Anyway, We travel quite a distance today. Abit haywire i supposed.

Imagine going to pasir ris ,

then to tampines and then to bugis and back to sengkang. phew! tiring and hungry-ful.

We hardly had any time to sit down. Everywhere

were packed with people.

Our legs are tired . Soon , we took the train back and stopped by mall to have dinner at sakura. it was funny to think of what actually

happen back then.

hee. but , it was a nice and we had a good meal.

Later , we went to meet Mum and went to the pasar malam next to mall. It was nothing much REALLY! and it was quite boring. not a long one and yet little variety to look around and see. hais. the stalls seems limited.

soon, we were on our way back after darls'b says that

he's legs couldnt take it anymore.

our feets were in pain and i dont think they could walk

any longer like they used too.

ish ish.

so, home we go .

we were lucky because after half-an-hour , it rained heavy!

!COLD COLD COLD! tomorrow's plan ; well , tomorrow. hrmm. going out for a birthday party in the evening. Celebrating my friend's function at pasir ris. i cant remember which chalet but i could confirm that later. =) going to the function with darl'b. then, maybe perhaps we stroll by the beach watching the

night scene. after which, tmrw i had to go home a little early than

what time i usually does cause b's had to go to school

tmrw morning.

hee. yesterday's memories ; it was my 8th month anniversary with darl'b. he gave me a toy kitten and thats so suprising of him. Well , it was sweet. Nothing more can i wished

for than having him being

so greatly caring & beautiful to me.

being someone to stand against my needs

is hard but i appreciate he

stands by me and with patience and all.

muacks.

=) thank you b.

to let you know, you're the best. (i love you syg)