babylove.

im shagged and restless. Its past 12 and im still awake. Just finished an assignment and done packing my bag for tmrw Tutorial and Lecture. :( Sobs, i miss the holidays. We all do. Gosh, schedule's out and im like, working all weekends. God bless.

Anyway, my day was EXTREMELY LONG today. Pardon me for using CAPS too much in my "extreme" because 1st) I was phone-less (Frigging me, i forgot my phone! The most impt comm dev lah!) 2nd) I was early and i went home uber late. (You dont wanna know but Im listing it as pointers anyway, haha!).

Shucks! Imagine, ME? Forgot phone? Oh my god, you can say that again. Sad sia, feel left out and out of this world kind of emo. haha, anyway - im already back home safe and sound. :) Went for psy lecture just now and it was just me and Katsu. We came late, squeezed in 2 seats in the 3rd row from the front, played Tic-tac-toe and missed 2 slides and we laughed the entire time still figuring what's the "little albert" is about plus the violence in media nowadays. haha. Funny sey. But, seriously, boring. :(

Anyway, school's 1-6 for me tmrw. WAHHHHHHHHH, baby's like 11-12 only lah. So, i guess i'll be going home alone. Heee, but IM GUESSING. MAYBE HE'll fetch me? I dont know. :) We'll see how it goes.

As for now, good night my sweet sweet peanuts dipped in chocolates.

Sleep tight doinks, doinks.

&& OH, ADIK HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Kakak doakan adik panjang umur, murah rezeki dan akan sentiasa didampingi orang-orang yang disayangi. :)

Happy 17th birthday.

Study hard, :)

woah, finally weekends! Finally a break after a week of school! I guess school was okay, but im not really sure cause next week finally it starts! Group works, discussions blablabla. I prefer lectures actually. :( Sobs, anyway - i love weekends minus sundays of work, okay?

sheesh.

anyway, baby's been exceptionally sweet this week. Like super sweet:

1) He waited for me like a day, without sighing.

2) He keep asking if im okay

3) He hugs me more than usual

4) He walks me home like eventhough he's gonna faint soon, winks!

5) He tolerate my childish acts despite the attitude thrown-ed.

plus many more....

Its sweeter than usual. Anyway (again!), school's been okay. Im really exhasuted and weekends (saturdays only) like mean so much to me! SO SO MUCH! Hehes. My heads a sore eversince i knocked my head hard on the hand dryer thing @ Airport. SAKIT LAH! But, lucky no bumps lumps. :) Bought a jacket and mascara, :) hoho. I just finish bathing, to be exact and its making my body feeling so soothe and calm. I listened to 'womanizer' while bathing and it repeated like 6 times before i finally finish my bath and gets out.

SO, im gonna go now. ALWAYS TIRED lahh.. :( I wanna sleep night! Ucu said, he'll call earliest 12 mid for night scouting but looks like, im all cleaned and dressed for bed. I guess, bed's my bff for tonight!!!! Hoho. :)

Nights birds and butterflies, sleep tight.

im watching simpsons now. that show definitely made me feel alot more better. i just got home from school. im feeling fucked. hais, i dont know how else to say it but im beginning to suck at socialising. i admit, im terrible. anyway, lets not talk about it anymore. gosh, tmrw i was like all ready to go out with baby but then, i just remember i had a briefing tmrw @ 6. hais, there goes my plan with love. a chance to finally go out, dating and shopping. :(

i think i upset him because he's looking forward to it but, hais. briefing, i need to go. why? or else, i'll get kicked out.

:( im feeling all cramped and hollow right now. im all awaiting for destination truth. baby, i miss you. i miss mama & akmal too. Heee, mwah.

school finally open. Had an early breakfast with mama, baby and baby A. I dont like titan chicken. I still prefer my usual turkey bacon. Teehee.

Anyway, school started at 1 for me today with Accounting my first lecture of the week! Wtf, you might be thinking but imagine sitting in it. it took like the whole 2 hours lah. PLUS INTRO, admit it. Sheesssh, but i guess - one good thing, he explained it well. And, i better start understanding and studying earlier this time, with notes all prepared weeeekssss way before examss. && by then, i'll be more than happy again to be expecting the long breaks!

I feel funny, all the way till school. I dont know why but i feel weird. It was as if I was really new in school. I dont know what's getting the hold on me but i seem to feel like its all orientation all over again. Why? Hmmm, i guess im still shy high. Heeee, okay! I know those people who knows me must be saying, "Siak ah, shy ke pe??" Haha, paham2 lah. Weird dok.

Chey, im film Bohsia influence sey. But not as rabak as Nani, NANI IS REALLY INFLUENCED WITH THE BOHSY LINGO. HAHAHA, KAN KAK NANI SYG KU INTAN PAYUNG EMAS?? Heeeee. Camwhore fun lah at work and i admit, im still angry and upset tau. :(

Alright, school starts & usual, I GOTTA START THINKING OF FRIGGING WHAT TO WEAR. Hais, i miss my uniforms. Gosh, gosh, gosh. Wearing home clothes isn't bad if i had known what to wear, kan? Sheessssh.

&& Shucks, i really miss baby deep down. Nothing's wrong between us but i terribly missssed him. Geeeeeeheeee. Sigh.

baby picked me up yesterday.. :) The sweetest thing he ever told me about yesterday. :) I love you.

&& the girls are making my day. :) At work now and we had our lunches at the back. Breakfast was fun and filled with many things to talked about.

:)

i know we see each other almost setiap hari. But somehow, im beginning to miss you. I don't know what's going on or what's missing but it feels so different to be missing someone you see almost all the time. :) Today was great but lets make the next time greater than today.

ps: my letter after 'U' is fcuking not working! Nak kena hantar repair ke pe?? One thing i hate about it is, its somewhere in JURONG. SHIT! Anybody wanna go with me? :P

i just woke up, barely bath too. Akmal is still sleeping, adik pun still sleeping. Baby's in school and mama went to the market. I woke up in the quiet morning with everthing so still and discreet. My tummy's still doing its churning. I bet Gastric is back again. Sheessh, gotta start taking the medicines again. Okay, anyways, feeling so blur right now.

Yesterday was my anniversary and I still havent do anything about it. I bought nothing and we didnt went out cause he's timetable ended late. And im telling you, im freaking shit right now cause everywhere I heaard, everybody's saying their timetable's a pissed. I mean, im hoping mine wouldn't end super late. Just don't want lah, can? Hais. Next week, Im starting school and Im already nervous like f.

Staying at home been's good. I enjoyed just lazing around. Imagine if i hadn't make it to poly, i prolly be looking for a job right now. But, thankfully, i Do. :)

Anyways, still i miss babylove somehow somewhere. He's in school prolly not missing me but I do. Im used to like seeing him every morning I wake up or hearing him waking me up. Haha. I bet you guys are thinking, 'wtf ? You see him everyday, so?' Haha, i know but its just different when it all happens. Blablabla.

Alright, im gonna stop blabberring further now. Going to take my ultracarbon meds now.

blog's been a shit to Mozilla. So, eventually had to use IE instead. Shucks. Anyway, today marks my anniversary. :) Went for an early breakfast with love before he went to school. And now, tgh sibuk2 nak jaga baby. Hmmmz, still crying and i need to leave lappy for awhile. :( Shucks! Short post, i know.

my baby's down with gastric flu. Accompanied him to the doctor around 7.15 then head to his house to keep him company for awhile. Mum helped made porridge and i settle him down, feeding him medicine and giving him 100 plus to drink like the doctor said, "Shake the gas out first, then drink". And so, i shake shake shake shake shake the bottle until there's no mroe left. :) Strong eh. Haha. Baby was all pale, restless and weak. Lying down on his couch, shivering. Grabbed him his blanket and told him to change into something more comfortable.

He changed and lay down again, watching Meet the Fockers. Mama made him porridge and when i feed him, he just couldn't eat. No appetite is one thing but that stuck up feeling of vomit pushing up through your gullet is another. Poor baby, i hope he's well. Gastric flu is really sickening. Try gastric flu with food poisoning. PAIN! Dont wanna go through it again.

But now, im getting all sick. Sniffling my nose through out the entire time till now. Shoot, im working tmrw. Working like any other sundays. Been calling baby, tapi i think he's already asleep cause he's not picking up. Must be the fever medicine i gave him.

Kesian baby. I hope he get well soon cause he's coming over tmrw night with his family. But, if he's not recovering, i'll understand.

I love you, get well soon and please eat, love.

im tired from swimming yesterday. heeee. :) Gonna meet baby later. Baby's sick and i've been at home the entire day. Nak makan ice cream with baby also cannot. :(

Well, im working tmrw and tmrw night, baby & family is coming over to my place. :) So, its gonna be at night since im only back after 7.30. workking lah, and bff wants me to ask supervisor about any sunday vacancy. heee, i try okay?

okaylah, i need to go get change and decide whether to wear long sleeve or just polo tees. Errrrm, gonna reach my phone cause i heard it ringing non stop!