listen: all by myself - celine dion every morning, i'll woke up with a song in my head. i dont know how it came about but i'd seem to be singing them in silence and that song keep tuning in my head till im gone to school. So therefore, today's song IN MY MIND this morning was all by myself. hee, kindda feeling emotional lately. I mean, this happens everytime im sitting alone. I just feel thrown off or some sort but somehow later on, im back again bumbling around and smiling. Funny, i hate mood swings but i can't seem to improve that. zheesh! anyway, school was great. S&W was terribly fun and i f* enjoyed myself. Poor fida got her lef in pain and couldn't walk. Carried her shoe and make everyone laughed terribly. hahahh! Okay, wtf. err; Prolly not gym-ing tmrw cause im too tired. Futhermore, samaire's having a hard time right now and i'd understand her situation. BL, im sorry for being such a turn off. but, whatever it is I LOVE YOU. But, at times you just dont realise how i try to toleratecertain issues of yours and knowing that we'll end up in a tiff at times. but, i apologize and im sorry for the f* m. swing lately. everyone needs a someone they could depend on. even if that person is the only person in this world.

life's deepest shit is when your self-esteem is running low. BUCK up! gosh, i hate longggggggggggggg & slowwwwwwwwwwww bus rides plus gastric pains plus having to feeling so awkward everything i stand.

listen: thriller - michael jackson i love the new song on my blog. its sways my boring mood away and make me wanna love more, more and more. haha, wtf right? but, i really do love the lyrics. & the music, its the perfect music to straighten out thos wrinkled tension moods. hee, a simple song but yet so meaningful. Give me a reason to fall in love Take my hand and let's dance Give me a reason to make me smile Cause i think i forgot how I wanna fall asleep with you tonight I wanna know that i am safe when you hold me tight I wanna feel like i wanna feel forever Girls need attention, and boys need us So let's make everybody glad That they have each other in each others arms Oh let's make everybody glad I want you. I wanna dream away with you tonight We can go anywhere you would like I wanna feel how i wanna feel forever I want you

listen: pump it - black eyed peas bored, very bored. i wish i could use a little red bull. im tired, restless and lately, my mind's not been working really well. im feeling happy but at the same time troubled. my self-thoughts keep me up all night. anyway, the boys are out palying soccer today, preparing for their soccer match - a month starting today. im alone at home with fatty boom asleep. haha. anyway, the day i went for gym. it was a good workout. what i enjoyed most was the experience. haha, samaire's pervert was such a nuisance. haha! he's big body is bothering me. i dont know why, but i can't help laughing when i looked at him. samaire pretty much hate his perv-f* face. lols. met Lika and Hasanah at the gym too! Went home with them and eventually, me and hids were pretty much hungry and head for LJS. Effing please, i realise that there's no use of going gym if im still going to stuff on junk foods. But at least, i make effort to exercise and lately, i've been doing regular running with BL, in the evening. anyway, saw this bitch and i pretty much still hates her till now. but, blast her. i had fun eating and chatting with the girls. Later on, went home with Lika and met baby at Compass. as for the other days, lesson were pretty normal. Manage to catch up with my subjects as i was absent for Thursday. And yes, school was okay and good. right now, im feeling so restless and thinking of going for a run with BL, after he's done with the trainings. mwah.

listen: because you loved me - celine dion apparently, my tittle does not link with what im about to post. hahah! school was okay and i didnt go for PIE class! whereas i stayed back for a little game of "murderer". lols, :). then, went to cp and ate dinner with BL. had chicken rice and drank a lot of teas today! greeen tea, mandarin orange tea, ice lemon tea and blablablabla. but guess what, i BOUGHT MAYA her COLLAR! yay! its red with a bell attached. so everytime there's a tingle, i know who to guess. heehe. tmrw, there's a whole lot of things awaiting me. breakfast with the class in the morning, gym-ing with samaire and hids in the afternoon and play cards with baby in the night. sweeetttttttttttttt!

BL, i love you and im glad you feel the same way too. We've been through ups and down and im glad that you've got my back. Thank you for being really nice, sweet and loving because what you had shown me all these while really touches my inner side. :)

MUM, i love you so much. You've always got my back and always make me stand up straight everytime im falling. Nevertheless, sometimes i feel that the things i do could never level up with the things you and dad had given me these years. Therefore, i really wanna thank you and nothing in words could show/tell how much i love you. Sometimes, the things you do to make things right - really inspires me. :)

listen: that's when i love you - aslyn hahahahhh, i dont know why but i so fcuking enjoy blogging today. crap eh? i got nothing to say but i just enjoy seeing my words and paras appearing on the computer screen. best! BL, i enjoy being with you. i love youuuuuuu, yay! booobooo, :)

listen: im alive - celine dion ACTUAL EVENT, take note. please watch this video of a calf and how its survives from being a feast. its actually a very sad, sad ACTUAL EVENT with a beautiful and glorious ending. it potrays about how miracles happen at the last minute, even if you're at your dead end. Actually, the calf was just taking a walk with its mum and dad when a group of hungry lions jumps out of the bushes and chase only after the calf. 1 of them caught hold of the calf's tail and both splashes into the water. When they're in the waterhole, the whole bunch of 3-4 lions, tried to team up and pulled their 'feast' out when another hungry predator appears from under the water. You'll notice that there's actually a crocodile also pulling onto the calf's tail while the 4 lions pulls the calf's head and neck. And note this, both sides were pulling the calf in OPPOSITE direction. poor thing! anyway, later on in the video, the crocodile gave up and the llion won. They managed to pull the ''food'' out of the waterhole and starting killing it when you'll notice that there's a HERD OF BUFFALOS coming into the action. believe me, this is the best part! they start forming and surrounded the lions. eventually, the daddy buffalo got really mad seeing it's calf sufferring and chases 1 of them out of the ring. Later on, mummy buffalo got anzious and they herd starting nearing the lions. The calf tried and tried to stand up and when it finally did, the calf managed to let loose the lions grip and runs into the herd. BELIEVE ME! I SWEAR THIS VIDEO IS REALLY, REALLY GOOD. i've been searching for it eversince january after i watched Ellen Degeneres Show showing this video which they were talking about Miracles and stuff. Then later part of that they, i was so determined to find this and there i found it. hee! bottomline - teamwork is very important to keep everyone together and never doubt the strong power of teamwork. teamwork can be very effective in times of need. HAPPY WATCHING, ITS GOOD.

listen: london bridge - fergie

18th birthday Blesses, thank you. & fida's minnie mouse cup. thank you, Fifi!

First day of school, monday!

listen: more than that - backstreet boys another cut on my left finger and im starting to feeling superstitous all over. i mean, why me? my feet still hurts and i think im wearing slippers tmrw. but then again, i think im better getting an MC. but, wth, its just the 2nd week of school, kan? haha. anyway, cosuin did come over just now and nothing much. except, i helped her with uploading her blogskins and pictures. nothing much. i miss BL. can't meet him up today cause my feet hurts and i can barely wear my slipper without whining like a baby. he too, has a deep cut on his ankle. okay, guess what. i watched crimewatch and watch the part on paedophile. well here's the thing. they aren't just perverts but they only hunts for children! paedophile - an adult who is sexually attracted to children. poor kid, molested by an old uncle and then taped like some porn star. old freak! it really sent me chills down my spine and i came to think, its really disgusting. 2 victims - ordered to stripped in some public toilet and then sit somewhere near the naked man and taped doing something we wouldn't want to know. well, got to go now and head for some serious sleeping. good night and i shall blog again tmrw! good night, tired legs!

listen: jenny -the click five fcuk, minutes ago i've got nails prick into my feets. i've put on medicine and was LUCKY that the pain was fast or else, i would have stepped on it FULLY! the wound is still swollen and lucky for me, its just a little devilish prick. but it still sucks, okay? fcuk. anyway, didnt plan to do anything fun today cause cousins coming over. yay! she's not here yet but she promised to come here by 2. uncle's sending so i save my troubles of fetching her. :) lols. can't meet with BL now but perhaps later cause we're both busy doing our stuffs and resting at home. anyway, this wound still bloody hurt sia. i cant wallk properly and i have to walk like i've got bowed legs. pathetic ler! prolly i got to get more medicine and wrapped up both feets for good. maybe it'll feel better by then. chao! ps: BL, i miss you.

listen: i want you back - n sync just came back from jogging with BL. its been a long time since i last jog around the neighbourhood. so, yes - im a little rusty. it reminded me of my days back in school where running was a torture especially with charles. but, its a big work out for me and i appreciate that. anyway, i spent my day at home and never leave. BL actually planned to go esplanade and have a rideon the s.flyer but eventually, we cancelled our date because i overslept way, way overslept. OVERSLEPT because i was too tired. its been weeks since i last woke up as early as 5, so the first week of school was kind of a catch-up for me. yep, screw up! but, BL understand. so he came over and we spent our day at my place eating ice creams, watching dvds and playing the xbox. then, mum and dad bought 'tulang'. yummy!!!!!! mum knows best. i've been craving for months. lols! in the evening, went to uncle's place to sent some stuffs and uncle gave me my belated bdae present. i was very suprised because its a pink adidas watch. :) very delighted because my birthday is a bless. i wanted a watch so bad and there i have it. a black everlast watch from dad and a pink adidas watch from uncle. (thank you =)) right now, i need a bath because my body is itching all over and im feeling stuffy! pictures will be uploaded soon, mwahs! good night readers.

music : money money money - abba school was shit. ramu's class was cancelled because only five turned up and thats me, shasha, aisyah, ron and zul. anyway, nothing much happened during school today except there's loads of performances and ccas roadshow. it was much better than last year's i bet. im in need of a cca and i decided to join floorball. it may sound blablabla, but i liked it. :) lessons was pretty norm and bull today. we were released early for evm today because everyone wanted to have their breakfast. but adm was so, so pathetic. i dont know why but it just is. very theoritical and rigid. but fun thing was, chatting with liana. yes, liana; word count - 3 ( i counted them all as you speak. hehe,) Anyway, being so f** bored, i drew little girlies on my book both evm and adm. hee, its childish but cute. i love the fat arms i drew and the hair that just look like little wigs. lols! i have proofs of vandalising my books to make it look colourful. hahah! gosh, im tired and i really am. my eyes are so heavy that i wish i could put toothpicks in between the lids - that is, without having it to poke into my eye first! im being so uncomfortably lately with my nose itching since last week and that pain sense in me thats saying im looking awfully bad each day, everytime i looked into the mirror. My nose itch so bad and sometimes, it just hurts. Then, it drips watery liquids and i cant take it having to go, "scrootf, scrootf" blowing on pieces of tissues all the time with nothing coming out but water. as bad as it sounds, i got to get some rest! pssst! money, money, money - major girl issue!

yay! finally completed my movie download of Sleepy Hollow. Wee, loaded it into the psp and im ready to watch. hang on johnny, im on my way! haha, fwuk. watching johnny's movie is such a craze and too bad for becks, he's not acting and he's retiring from soccer soon. (pissed off) Anyway, finish and done with the other downloads too but just had to wait for BL to get us a bigger memo card to store my so-crappy-stuffs into the psp. hehe. anyway, i forgot to mention that cp can be so-such a place of pissed! as me and chip were walking up the escalator, these group of frigging annoying-bunch-of-pervert pakciks, tried to flirt! they goes, "wahh, baru balek skola ke?.. badan baik sey, wee witt". i mean like, are you kidding me? you're as old as my dad and you're saying these kind of fcuking disgusting statements to girls that's good enough to be your daughters? grossologyyyyy, that is! anyway, got to head to sleep now. & i swear im feeling utterly super lazy to even wake up for school. i wanna be absent tmrw, haha!

listen : wont go home without you - maroon 5

i love this fat cat!

the cold, cold shower is sending me shivers down my spine. i had to put on my jacket everytime i went out and cover myself with something warmer than my normal tees. i hate to get wet but at the same time, im free from those heaty, heaty afternoons where im prespiring all over at the back of my unifrom, waiting to be cooled down by the chillness of the air-cons and rain. weeee! anyway, school ended pretty early than expected. (well, not so early but atleast, its no too late) but we do have many, MANY breaks in between lessons and thats whats dragging our time for evm. So, after school went to j8 and was about to walkthrough j8 when fida saw that perv PAKCIK standing in the middle of j8 looking into our direction. Shasha being so, so freaked out, took a detour and went the long way. Then, after shasha left, we head for that pet store down at b1. i wanted to get maya a treat and a collar but there's too much to choose from and i guessed its better to wait for baby before i bought her anything. anyway, its raining so - so heavy this late afternoon and right now, i have to go fetch babylove at the lrt. lucky for aisyah, her area is still sunny and dry. (:

okay, school was fine. saw the new batch of students and it reminded me of my very first day. ohh gosh, i was smiling and smirking. haha, wtf. anyway, was supposed to come to school at 8 and i did. Had our talk at 10 which ended 30 minutes later. Being dismissed so bloody early today, me and friends head down for Vivoc - rina, fida & ron. So, had our breakfast/lunch at banquets and i had yong tau fu. Well, its was not exactly the best i've tasted today but it was okay. then, head to candy empire to look for candies and something chocolate but biscuit. unfortunately, there's too much of it and nothing stir and aroused my craves. So we left and head for sky park. Walked around for awhile and we went to the pet shop. All i saw were a hamster and many puppies. Personally, i think they all look very, very sad. The way they looked at you and wiggle around, standing on their two feets - its pretty sad. I mean, as sad as they look, its much more worst at SPCA i guess.I wanna go to SPCA and see it for myself but then, i find it pretty hard to reach there. Like the other day when i was watching "Rouge" - i saw the pets there, its heartbreaking. I mean, they once belonged to a family and then, eventually they were being dumped away after their pets started creating some trouble at home. Its sad isn't it? Yeah, i wish i had a pet at home. And i would adopt it at SPCA and grew it up into a healthy fat cat. Hehe, but it'll be a while before i started living alone. Was walking home just now, listening to "big girls don't cry" and i realise how much i love that song. i've been listening to it almost everytime when im down or maybe when i just wanna be alone. i don't know, but it kind of reflect myself in a way. Sometimes, i have this way of reacting differently than the way it should be. Funny, eh? Hahah. Anyway, doing nothing right now but just blogging. My timetable is such a mess. Oh god! The early mornings to a new day does seem to be a little dull and unexpected. School starts at 8 EVERYDAY, how bad is that? Pffffffft! Right now im waiting for baby to msg me like how im waiting for him to end his lesson in school. And after that, who knows - might be going out or prolly staying at home.

schools starting tmrw and i feel so "off-track". i dont feel like getting up in the early morns to wash, bathe and get ready for school. My cells are telling me their still sleeping and they need more of it than what i do. I just hope the terms modules are going to be simple and so does the timetable. I hope my timetable would be like the previous term where i thought we were pretty slack with the teachers and all. Hee! anyway, school's tmrw and i bet its going to be like any other days. Studying, studying and going to school. Darn! So the holiday ends. Hmm, and im always hoping to do something out of the blues kind of thing, you know? hehs! :)

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